Before I got pregnant, I used to work in a firm where 10-12 hour days were normal. One of the first things I learned there was to multi-task. Working on an legal opinion, while talking to your boss on the phone who's following up another item and clearing a status report and eating lunch at the same time were normal activities in the office. However, when I got pregnant, the first month was really tough. I threw up about 5 times a day.. when I got to work, before lunch, after lunch, when I got home, after dinner. Every little movement made me dizzy! It's no surprise that I lost 7 pounds during that 1st month! Stan and I talked and decided that I needed to quit my job so I could better take care of myself and Naima (then in my tummy).
Naima is now 5 months old and I haven't gone back to work yet! Initially, I thought that I could go back to work when she was 2 months old - but then I had a lot of problems breastfeeding her (see separate post). Since I was adamant about breastfeeding, I put off going back to a full-time job even if staying at home has been making me crazy.
Through friends and connections, I got connected to an SJD-candidate at Harvard who was completing her dissertation (600++pages) and needed a research assistant! We met once and have been working by email since then. I did major internet legal research and a lot of blue-booking. We are almost done and she's due to give her defense by the end of May so we're just putting the finishing touches. She's asked me to continue working for her since she wants to turn her paper into a book. The pay is pretty good so I can continue on doing this. But I don't know -- even while I was working for her, I still missed going to the office, meeting people. I don't think I'm cut out to be a work-at-home mom.
In any case, Naima's six months is just around the corner and my promise to Stan (to be a stay at home mom) is almost ending. It's time for us to sit down, discuss my plans (and his plans) and work on our priorities. I want to stay home with Naima but I just get soooo bored here. Dilemma, dilemma.. I need enlightenment!
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